Lately I have been happy. Despite all the 'fun' changes in my life, I have been relatively happy.. or I guess content is more accurate. But, then there are days like today where I start missing things and feel kinda lonely.
I miss having a husband. It's hard to do this by myself, and I will do it and be fine, I know that. But i just miss having that man in my life who loves me and I can lean on and who helps share the load.
I miss the girl Melia used to be. I was looking through some photos of Melia that were taken right before her regression started and I miss her. Don't get me wrong, I love my daughter immensely just the way she is but the little girl I had a year and a half ago was just so precious to me and I miss her.
I miss my house in Strathmore. I don't miss the commute or being 45 minutes away from my wonderful parents but I miss the house. It was little, and probably too little for my little family right now unless I renovated the basement but it was mine! I wasn't sharing it with Jodi and it didn't squeak and creak and the lawn wasn't lumpy and gross.
I miss being skinny- well, skinnier than I am right now. I want to get back to the size I was when I got pregnant, and I will, but I feel like with my life crashing down around me it has put a serious wrench in my workout/exercise plans.
Hope I didn't bum you out. If anyone still reads this since I am so bad at posting!
3 comments:
I love you, Tanis! I wish I lived closer so I could raid your house and watch a silly chick flick (17 Again) to make you feel better. I hope tomorrow is better and brighter! :) *MUAH*
love you Tanis! Know that I am always here if you need anything.
I'm still reading :-)
I don't know what's happening but wish you well and strength through your trials.
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